It's embarassing to admit, but i don't give much to people that beg for money, or for food, or cigarettes.
Last week in the subway, a 40-some guy, who is often on the twelfth subway-line, started yelling against every people in the wagon, saying that he was losing his mind, and that he was ready to "make a mistake". Because nobody gave him money, or a cigarette... I felt terrible.
The next day, same time same place and the same guy. I had two euros in my pocket, and was ready to give him, not only because i felt terrible and wanted to clean-up my middle-class guiltiness, but also because, well, he needed money.
So I grabbed my two euro coin, i was SO ready to give it to him, but he never came to me because he talked with a nice granny.
I felt even more awkard, the coin in my hand, the guy not so far from me, but also not close enough. He jumped out of the subway. From now, I haven't seen him again.
Anyway.
Being generous in the virtual world is much easier. Going in a forum, answering a question about a TV-show for a poor lost web-user who is so grateful afterwards ; letting many users downloading
So little commitment, so many generosity.
I don't want to leave my flat anymore, the outside world is too embarassing.
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